Something I've been saying and asking a lot lately is, "I didn't see this for my life." Or, "Did you imagine this for your life?" I think it came from B on the phone, being like, "I don't know how I got to this point. Well, I know how I got to it but sometimes it seems a little funny. Like if a person gets abused at a prison, why should I be the person to get a phone call? What?"
This weekend was great. I drove a twelve person van through a snowstorm to Harrisburg for the PA Conference Against Torture, and spent all the time around that planning and executing a brunch for 20 people. It was an effort in endurance. I got a lot of love and support the whole way. That old thing about feeling cared for because we exist and we are together.
I'm having a really nice time. I'm having a great time even. I just didn't see this for my life.
One thing I was thinking about after driving the van, and pulling a marathon day, and making jokes about Trucksville, was the things that I can do. Sometimes I can't get everything done. Sometimes I can't do anything. Sometimes I can't respond to a pen pal for weeks, or make a single phone call, even though I think about it every day. Sometimes I think about the skills I have and the skills I don't have and wonder about the things I can do and if I need to be knowing something I don't know.
One thing I CAN do is be on time. One thing I CAN do is show up. I can always show up. I can always show up, and I can always drive the bus.
This weekend was great. I drove a twelve person van through a snowstorm to Harrisburg for the PA Conference Against Torture, and spent all the time around that planning and executing a brunch for 20 people. It was an effort in endurance. I got a lot of love and support the whole way. That old thing about feeling cared for because we exist and we are together.
I'm having a really nice time. I'm having a great time even. I just didn't see this for my life.
One thing I was thinking about after driving the van, and pulling a marathon day, and making jokes about Trucksville, was the things that I can do. Sometimes I can't get everything done. Sometimes I can't do anything. Sometimes I can't respond to a pen pal for weeks, or make a single phone call, even though I think about it every day. Sometimes I think about the skills I have and the skills I don't have and wonder about the things I can do and if I need to be knowing something I don't know.
One thing I CAN do is be on time. One thing I CAN do is show up. I can always show up. I can always show up, and I can always drive the bus.
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