June 9, 2008

Parental Probs

My mom has had me gripped in a small financial scandal for the last few years. As a result taxes are insanely difficult, correspondence of billing statements and presigned checks riddle my mailbox and I become very stressed out. This week, after not calling me for a few weeks my mom called on strict business at early hours with greeting like, "Amanda: Mom" Its very difficult to talk business with people you aren't supposed to have business with, especially if you do not want to have business with them. In short, I have asked my mom to clear my name, to get me out of New York and stop this child dependent scheme. The problem is, this will result in her having a major income cut, which may or may not force her towards grim financial circumstances. Its really difficult choosing between my own self interest and my mom's financial well being. Mostly because if I go against my mom, she will feel underappreciated, like all of the things she has done for me in the past meant nothing. But that is not the case. It is possible to appreciate the past, but to have a limit of extension. This appreciation can come in all kinds of forms and not have to be linked to favors in kind. Like having to tell a story about an admirable person in sign language class, and walking out crying, realizing at that point of awkward language, that trying to explain my mom and her momness was just too much.